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bLaCk & bLuE

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    Life
    16″ x 12″
    Watercolor on Paper
    2006

    An abstract painting again. A person who is depressed, the world turns black in his sight. All he wants is to end his life by jumping into the river and drown his self. In the upper part of the painting, there’s a white bird flying symbolizes our guardian angel, begging not to continue in his act of stupidity.

    This subject reminds me of a friend who committed suicide around June last year. In the middle of the night, she called me up crying that she will end her life because her boyfriend cheated her by not telling the truth that he’s already a family man. It hurts her so badly. I advised and encouraged her not to do such horrible things like that. After a long minutes of confiding her, she thanked me a lot, exchange good nights. Then i went back to sleep without worrying on what she confessed to me.

    The next day, around 8am still asleep my mobile phone rang again. First, i thought it’s her again but when i listened to the voice behind the other line… it’s her mom. She called me up because she found out in her daughter’s mobile phone that i was the last person whom she talked to. I was shocked when she told me that my friend was in the hospital caused of sleeping pills overdosed.

    To make the story short, my friend woke up the following day. She survived in her attempt to end her precious life. Now, she’s contended and happy for being single but still waiting for a man who will love her forever.

    Hmmmm… No… not me :)

    I’m telling you blogmates…. I don’t want any friend who has a suicidal tendencies behavior. Please leave me alone wheeehehehe… :) :) :)

    Without a doubt, life is beautiful… don’t waste time to do the things that will make you happy… :)

    This entry was posted on Wednesday, October 11th, 2006 at 7:30 am and is filed under ArTs, CrAzInEsS, FrIeNdS, ThIs Is Me, hEaLtH. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.

44 Responses to “bLaCk & bLuE”

  1. melai Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 7:37 am

    wala pang nagcocomment pre defensive ka masyado tsk tsk tsk … hmmn sana narealize na ng friend mo yung ganda ng buhay ..Thank GOD nakasurvive siya

  2. ev Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 7:43 am

    ikaw ba to?hehehe!wag naman sana…ang payat kaya nyan!pero great work of art pa rin…i wonder ano kaya iniisip nyan!;0)

  3. ev Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 7:44 am

    ang tototo di ako nagbasa(hehe)…suicidal pala case nito..mmmm…buti na lang may second chance pa sya para itama mali nya.

  4. teklasdiary Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 8:07 am

    buti nmn nakarecover friend mo :)

  5. ralphT Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 8:31 am

    haha. inunahan mo ako. sasabihin ko pa lang na ikaw na lang! hahahaha

    buti naman ok na siya. yes, life is wonderful indeed! :)

  6. sasha Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 8:40 am

    hehehe tama si ate melai, defensive ka pakner! eniwei, mabuti naman naka-survive fwend mo. di dapat suicide ang solusyon sa problema sa kalalakihan… daming fafa dyan. yun nga lang nakakadepress talaga isipin na konti na lang ang available ngaun. all the good men are either married, engaged or gay! hay…

  7. wendy Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 11:06 am

    With or without problem… Life is beautiful!
    Happy or sad… life is wonderful!
    Single or in a relationship… Life is great!
    God loves us… so if we really love our self and we love God at lahat ng tao na nakapaligid sa atin… walang dahilan para mag-suicide!
    Glad na naka-survive ang friend mo!

  8. rHo Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 12:43 pm

    napaka-precious talaga ng life, buti na lang at naka-survive ang friend mo.

  9. iskoo Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 1:25 pm

    na ko-correct naman ata yan suicidal tendecy, malay mo ikaw ang makapagpabago sa kanya kapag kayo na, nyahahaha. peace kneeko!

    galing ng art, may istorya.

  10. nona Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 2:24 pm

    Life is beautiful!!

    Kung puwede ngang wala ng kamatayan eh, kaso di pwede…
    Buti na lang naka-survived si friend mo…tsk tsk! kung nagkataon, sayang ang buhay niya.

    Buti ka pa ama, nakakapagpinta….galeng ah!

  11. syiekatsuya Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 2:38 pm

    Nice painting. Talking about depressed… I also have friend..not close friend…she also try to committed suicide by cutting her hand. short stories..now she married and have 3 kids.
    About my baby..she recover already and TQ.

  12. eden Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 6:26 pm

    i was into situation where in i feel down and depressed pero dko naman naisip mag suicide..you’re friend is still lucky…..regards to her and sabihin mo basahin bagong post sa blog ko :)

  13. karminaanak Says:
    October 11th, 2006 at 10:17 pm

    so, alisin mo na pala ako sa linklist mo ninong! hahaha.. joke lang.. :)

    hirap nyan kuya.. hay, sobrang depression..

    prayers lang kailangan dyan saka friends! :)

  14. mmy-lei Says:
    October 12th, 2006 at 6:43 am

    baka sign na yun! hehehe!

  15. kepyang Says:
    October 12th, 2006 at 7:17 am

    ama..ang ganda namna ng paint mu!! tskk..tsk..siguro senyo nagmana ang kapatid kong si teh tikey..hehe..baket ako walang namana?

    ako..ama..naisip ko na ding magsuicide hehe..yung blade..kaso ama..masakit pala kaya di ko na tinuloy..hehe..kasalanan yun..katakot..

    pagaling ka ama

  16. kathy Says:
    October 12th, 2006 at 9:58 am

    oops baka sya na soulmate mo?? hehe…. who knows?? ;)

    ikaw ba yang model ng painting mo? :P

    wik-end ka na bukas? enjoyyyy and dun forget ur tag lol!! :) and pagaling ka and gudlak sa laro nyo!

    ingatz po!

  17. Laarni Says:
    October 12th, 2006 at 2:02 pm

    i have suicidal tendencies. haha just kidding. lovely art you got there. :P

  18. yen Says:
    October 12th, 2006 at 6:53 pm

    omg, im glad ur friend survived, shes still lucky! i understand how painful it was for her, all of us go through some hard times, ive had my own share of hearbreaks as well pro it never occured to my mind to commit suicide, no man is worth dying for ah pwde ba?! sayang ang ganda ko hahaha! i hope ur friend has already moved on and now that shes got 2nd chance, sna hndi nia na maisipan na gawin uli yun..

    happy weekend :)

  19. karol Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 12:49 am

    hehe. bakit defensive ka? :) joke lang. anyway, i’m glad your friend got to recover. sayang ang buhay if you waste it over a guy. diba? :) great artwork. galing mo talaga!!!

  20. vince Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 7:00 am

    Very vivid! detailed and eye-catching yung painting…which speaks about the painter’s inner self. I just doubt yung suicide tendency kung paano na-relate yun sa painting, except if the author himself speaks abouthmmm, i dont know hehehe, peace kuy :), napadaan and ya, i appreciate your painting, maganda ang i like it.

  21. arch Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 8:26 am

    Huh, hintay ko ending kayo na, yun pala iba. Enewi, nagbago naman ang istorya, hindi na sya nagpaka-martir sa di dapat kanya, he he he. Dami nga dyan, ok pa rin kahit me asawa, he he he. At least patunayan mo, if a picture paint a thousand words why can’t you paint her di ba, di gaya sa kanta.

  22. camille Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 12:38 pm

    hmmm. it’s a good thing that your friend survived. whew.

    masaya ang buhay! hindi dapat natin tong sayangin dahil lang sa mga walang kwentang tao. tsk.

  23. ruthan Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 1:59 pm

    phew! buti na lang!!!
    2nd life huh??another chance??buti naman happy na sya..di lahat ng tao nabibigyan ng 2nd chance…sana ngaun nakikinig na sya sa mga advices na hindi nya ginawa nung gabing kinausap mo sya..i mean nakinig nga sya sau pero gnawa nya parin. ah basta maswerte sya at kasama na run na kaibigan ka nya. hehe sana nga..;p

    pero…anu nga kaya nu…kung sakaling natapos na ang lahat..anung magiging reaction mo sa mga susunod na araw, oras, minuto??..eh ikaw ung last na nakausap nya….ganu ka-grabeh magiging dating nun sayu?

  24. ethel Says:
    October 13th, 2006 at 4:03 pm

    Haldo Baldo, wow nice painting.
    Hhmm buti nalang pinaliwanag mo, sabihin ko sana na kayo nalang nung friend mo hehhehhe..
    muzta na Baldo, tapos na ramadan jan?
    Happy weekend samin :)

  25. micah Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 12:53 am

    we should value life kahit na ano pa man yung hirap na pinagdadaanan natin sa buhay. lahat naman may solution kung gugustuhin natin. it’s never too late to make up for your own life.

  26. ghee Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 2:59 am

    ganda..ang lalim ng iniisip sa kabilugan ng buwan?

    ikaw ba yang model?LOL

  27. nikki Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 3:03 am

    sadness/depression is part of life. sometimes it is God’s way of reminding us that we have forgotten Him. it is also His way of making us better & stronger persons. all we need to do is pause from our busy lives and pray to Him.

  28. kneeko Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 11:28 am
      @melai, matinik sa depensa eh hehehe… honga eh.

      @ev, hmmmm.. muni muni..

      aya.. di pala nagbasa eh wheew hehe

      @teks, honga po eh.. :)

      @ralphT, ganun ba hehe…

      yup live life to the fullest :)

      @sasha, hmmp 2nd d motion ka pa eh..

      mas marami na nga talaga kababaihan sa ngayon hehe… o nakahanap ka na ng donor?

      @wendy, nice one…

      u’r right..

      @iskoo, di na pede.. may magagalit hehe

      thanks..

      @nona, paano nga kaya kung wala ng kamatayan ano? andami-dami siguro ng tao sa mundo hehhee

      anaknona (sounds anaconda) nyahaha… kahit ilang minuto lang na pagkaupo mo makakatapos ka ng isa pag alam mo ang gagawin mo…

      di ba meron ka ng ginawa dati na 15mins lang?

      @syiekatsuya, thanks… well, your friend relaized also the value of life, that’s why she survived :)

      thats cool..

      @eden,.. tama lang na di pumasok sa isipan mo un.. ano ginawa mo pauntog untog lang hehehe…

      bihira ko na siya makausap eh..

      @karminaanak, ganun ba hehehehe..

      tama ka prayers and more prayers..

      @mmy-lei, ano naman? u saw the sign? hmmmm

  29. the kid Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 11:34 am

    ohhh well what can i say…..hmmmm, ‘am proud of you tol! I’ve seen your works. My fingers are not enough to count all the improvements.

    Bukod sa gumaling kang magpinta….ang dami ng ka blogmates mo!!!! astig ka!

  30. kneeko Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 12:05 pm
      @kepyang, salamat po… ah si ate tk mo hehe.. wala bang mana? wheew

      hahahha tama lang na di mo itinuloy… baka nalagyan pa ng kalamansi hehe

      @kathy, hmmmm di siguro hehehe

      ung ibang hugis lang hehe

      thanks..

      @laarni, hehehe…. thanks..

      @yen, yup she’s lucky… hahaha yan si yen… sayang ba ang ganda? hehehe

      happy saturday na po hehe :)

      @karol, di naman sagad… may magagalit kasi eh hehehe…

      thanks…. mag-update ka na!

      @vince, hehehe di ko ata kaya mag-suicide.. takot ako hehe

      thanks sa pagdaan ..

      @arch, hehe ganun ba… hahaha kahit ba may asawa? wheeew.. hmmmm di siguro pede hehhee

      @camille, yup.. oo naman masaya ang buahy kahit mahirap lamang..

      @ruthan, 2nd chance na tlga un.. honga eh ginawa pa rin… maswerte ba na kaabigan? hehe

      un nga eh kung natuluyan.. baka lagi kong naririnig ang boses niya sa na paulit ulit… empre baka di rin ako makatulog noon ng maayos.. :(

      @micah, wooow kaw ba yan nagsalita hehehe.. welcome bak!

      @ghee, nangingitim na buwan hehehe..

      sabi nga ni kathy eh hehehe kayo tlaga… pero parang ako nga hehehe..

      @nikki, amen hehehe…. nice one doki doki.. :)

      @the kid, thanks tol… kung hindi sa ‘yo baka di ko na natuloy pagpipinta ko noon… isa kang maimpluwensiyang kaibigan hehehe… laging maaasahan… sana ituloy mo na rin ung mga nakabinbin mong paintings hehehe…

      dami na ngang blogmates hehehe… 2 years na rin tayong di nagkikita ah… hope to see next year kung bakasyon ka rin…

  31. cruise Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 3:47 pm

    o cge di ka na namin bibiruan dun sa chick, seryosohin mo nalang sya, hehe. hanggat wala pa asawa pwede pa yun! :lol:

    ganda ng art.

  32. din-din Says:
    October 14th, 2006 at 10:43 pm

    first things first, congratulations for making it to the magic four.. este final four pala.. hehehe..

    hindi pa talaga oras ng friend mo.. good thing she’s fine now and she found a friend in you.. aawwww… :p

    p.s.
    Oo nga, halatang-halata ang pagiging defensive ah.. bakita kaya? hehehe.

  33. nona Says:
    October 15th, 2006 at 4:53 am

    oo nga itay, minsan depende sa mood ko….minsan ni re-ready ko na gamit ko..tapos hindi ko na alam kung ano ang ipipinta ko,…kailangan ma-inspire muna hehee…

  34. Lir Says:
    October 15th, 2006 at 12:04 pm

    abaw..bagan kadayom-dayom gid ang gina-isip ng tawo ah..kay pati ang namaki hay nakatungtong pa sa pungkuan!! imaw gid ina ang mga nakikita ko didto hampig sa otod..sa alihiron ng dayan, remember???? nice art work…!! bravo!!

  35. michelle Says:
    October 15th, 2006 at 2:01 pm

    Hello. Thank you for your visit my weblog.

    You’re right that lying always depends on the circumstance, but I’m a firm believer in the idea that truthfulness, to others and ourselves, is a way we form our identities. If we lie in life, then in a way we lie about our true selves.

    And my digital camera is nothing fancy. It’s a Canon Digital Elph S400 that is about four years old. I also use a Nikon N75 which is a manual single lens reflex (SLR) camera to take black and white pictures, which I develop and print myself in the photography lab. Haven’t done my own color printing yet, but I hope to learn soon. I’m actually saving up for a digital SLR, but it’s around $1000 so it’s going to take my some time to round up the money.

    Anyway, I’m not sure if the story you wrote for your piece of art is true or not. Regardless, I hope that friend of yours is ok. No one wants to have some one who’s emotionally troubled as a significant other, but I don’t think that makes them less deserving of love. I hope you remain her friend while she’s in all this pain. This is the time when friendship, true friendship really matters, when she needs the most support. You sound like a very joyful person, and it might be good for her if someone with that kind of personality is around her.

    And your painting is very accomplished. I like how the shapes define each space, and create a structure for the composition. It reminds me of a cross beteween pieces by abstract painters Piet Mondrian and Wassily Kandinsky, but a little more illustrative.

    (Sorry for blabbing. I was an Art History minor in college, so I have a lot of artwork stored in my head) Keep painting!

  36. chin2x Says:
    October 16th, 2006 at 5:49 am

    nice.and i love what it symbolizes.

  37. eden Says:
    October 16th, 2006 at 11:36 am

    ang daya naman oh ,wala bang bago???

    tnx sa dalaw ,sayang d mo nakikita nga pictures :( eh d ko rin alam kung bakitttt?

  38. ruthing Says:
    October 17th, 2006 at 11:57 am

    ay..tanong lang po..
    may kinalaman po ba ang arts sa trabaho nyo??like interior designer ka..o kung anu man???o hobby mo lang ang arts na grabeh sa passion???

    sori kung di ko nababasa yung mga old post nyo..baka nasasaad dun kung anung work nyo..pero para sa estudyanteng die-hard tamad na tulad ko…paki-sagut na lang ng aking tanung kung anu po trabaho nyo…sa one whole sheet of paper.In any order.No eraseures. Right minus wrong. Good luck!

  39. raine Says:
    October 17th, 2006 at 12:05 pm

    nice art!:-)
    about the topic,and i thought having somebody to talk to would thwart suicide attempts…so i guess it all really boils down to choices,if you’d go thru it or not.your friend is lucky to have had a second chance…some are not that lucky.

  40. jute Says:
    October 18th, 2006 at 1:22 am

    It’s a good thing your friend is okay now. I’m just wondering…your sun is black. o.0

  41. kneeko Says:
    October 18th, 2006 at 5:46 am

    @cruise, dre di na pede :)

    thanks..

    @din-din, thanks.. next week ang game namin aiming for 3rd place hehe… pero pag naswerte sana makapasok sa finals..

    defensive kasi baka may magalit na naman hehe

    @nona, yan tama.. dapat laging may inspirasyon sa lahat ng ginagawa… :)

    @lir… imaw gid hahahaha.. pero sa karsada lang sinda gapuyungko hehehe… thanks klasmeyt :)

    @michelle, thanks for the long comment.. :) my reply is in your blog…

    @chin2x, thanks po.

    @eden, later update ako :) minsan naman nakikita ko mga pix mo… d2 siguro sa amin ang may problema..

    @ruthing…. nasagot ko na po ang iyong mga katanungan.. nasa bahay mo :)

    @raine, thanks…

    yup.. my friend is still lucky..

    @jute, the sun is black because the guy in the painting thinks his doomed days…. :)

  42. cherryll Says:
    October 18th, 2006 at 9:19 am

    Obra maestra yong artwork mo insan…nakakabilib ka talaga

  43. Vince Says:
    October 23rd, 2006 at 1:28 pm

    Happy Eid Al-Fitr! Napadaan na ako para bukas na holiday dito :)

  44. gari Says:
    November 6th, 2006 at 3:30 pm

    oh holy sh…

    i should run away from you!
    my innermost thought says it
    black!

    hehehe

    g

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